my phone was stolen from IT on thursday when we got back from the foreclosure intervention.

i left the camp/us tonight after speaking with one of its leaderless leaders, a talking head.
i packed my shit outta there.

it was the only means by which i could throw up a block.

it seems that one of our homeless folks and a hearty participant in the movement had a breakdown friday night.
in my attempt to speak with said leaderless leader and talking head for our local movement, he was condescending and an all around jerk in regards to my attempt to communicate on behalf of the fellow occupier.

my complaint was that the thieves who took my phone (caught on camera) were still on campus, simply by denying the theft ... and were, furthermore, set up in a very nice tent (don't know if they provided it, or if it came from donations) ... and my homeless friend, well he was allowed to sleep outside on the ground in that storm of wind and rain and the only way he was given shelter was through me accepting a tent donation and passing it to him. i had thought i would occupy midnite's tent in protest and solidarity until he was returned to camp/us.

what really made me angry enough to leave the tucson movement was that talking head for OT said:

l) he is pressing assault charges against our homeless occupier, because he was violated in such an egregious manner (to be spat in the face) ...

my homeless friend had made such great strides. he came so broken and so afraid that he could not look us in the eye ... and he has grown in leaps and bounds because for once, he is being accepted on human terms as being valuable.

out of many of the homeless at OT, he is one who keeps trying to grow.

leaderless leader's inability to allow leniency for our fellow occupier's condition just kills me.

this man, who is a talking head for OT proved to he isn't even on page one. if he had just considered forgiving our fellow occupier (because maybe our comrade would refuse to come back) in our conversation, i would not have been compelled to pack up.

but i can NOT reconcile myself to this talking head, who doesn't live on camp/us... who doesn't sleep through the night with the honkers who hurl their invectives at us ... who has no clue as to how demoralizing it is ... who doesn't understand that a broken man can be triggered into madness ... who doesn't understand that this man's spitting in his face (while a very nasty and aggressive thing to do) probably took a lot of self control.

i believe that mr. talking head FEARS mr. homeless man and his spittle, because he thinks that his condition is infectious, or that he is diseased and could have passed a disease to him.

mr. talking head's condescension and inability to understand my attempt to communicate with him, "are you threatening me?" when i state emphatically, "i hope you get to live in the streets one day and experience being beaten and jumped and reduced to nothingness because you are homeless." showed me just how deep his ignorance is.

or his defensive statement that i was angry with him, just because i don't like him - my response: "i don't dislike you, i don't even KNOW you!" and when he urged me to press charges against the thief , i responded by asking "have you ever been mugged?" again, he took this as an affront, and stood to leave (i've been mugged, i was mugged at knife point in paris, france, when i was living and working there one summer ... the police NEVER retrieved anything taken from me in that incident. i am not a VICTIM!!!!) ... i might be a madwoman, but when he got up as i asked the question ... saying "we will have to just agree to disagree."

i knew i was done with occupy tucson. it's the only block i had, the only way to say, our talking head, one of our leaderless leaders is SO out of line with the movement, that i must retreat.

i went to the tent, grabbed my stuff, put it in my car and left.